Nearly a year after her husband committed suicide, Air Force widow still wonders why
Posted by defensebaseactcomp on September 25, 2011
NWF Daily News September 17, 2011
On a balmy Monday afternoon last Oct. 11, the Hurlburt Field Explosive Ordnance Disposal technician dialed 911, walked into his backyard and took his life.
“He shot himself in the heart,” said his wife, Melissa.
Jeremy was 31.
In the 11 months since then, Melissa has been forced to cope with blame from others and the guilt she harbors. There were no signs that Jeremy was contemplating suicide, but Melissa says she will play the “what if” game until the day she dies.
Jeremy wasn’t a complicated guy. The native of Chattanooga, Tenn., was incredibly smart, good at math and chemistry and often was misjudged as a “know-it-all.”
He knew a lot about cars and loved racing at amateur tracks. He and Melissa would go on drives in his blue Mini Cooper with no destination in mind. Jeremy always picked the winding roads for “precision driving” (aka speeding).
Melissa said he ate French fries only for the texture in his massive consumption of ketchup.
He was like a kid on Christmas when Melissa returned from the store with Blue Monster energy drinks and Reese’s Peanut Butter Cups.
He taped and edited videos for fun and brought his wife a snow globe from every TDY.
Melissa called Jeremy her little James Bond.
His work took him to Peru with President George W. Bush and to Paris with Colin Powell. He covered the Republican National Convention and guarded the Bush family on Thanksgiving Day.
There were missions with explosives so massive that Jeremy did not bother with a bomb suit; it wouldn’t have helped.
Melissa hates that a man that heroic is judged by friends, family and strangers. She braces herself for judgment every time she has to tell someone how Jeremy died